ROAD to 31 Devotional Day 19- "Don't Grow Cold"
Listen to "Break My Fall" from my new mixtape https://m.soundcloud.com/jeannie-ortega-2/break-my-fall-ft-the-righteous-rebel?in=jeannie-ortega-2%2Fsets%2Froad-to-31-mixtape-jeannie
Some people are under the false impression that when they give their heart to Jesus, that it'd be sunshine and rainbows from then on. That happened to me, I thought Church was a safe haven and that the people around me who did not believe would just follow suit. Not sure why I thought because I changed, the world around me would change 🤦🏻♀️ and boy oh boy was I in for a reality check!
Matthew 7:13-14 “Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.
I had surrendered my life and was determined to live a new life - full of faith, joy and away from negativity. But that devil was determined to disrupt that. As my insides were coming together, everything on the outside seemed to be falling apart. My family, career, my friends. I had to constantly remind myself of God's great love and how it reaches deeper and higher than any of the chaos. And that truly kept me because I knew that no one else or none of the riches I had ever reach that deep.
Roman's 8:35 "For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,  Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
However, if the enemy can't get you one way he sure is petty enough to keep trying. Once I overcame the obstacles from the outside life, He turned up the heat - this time using the church to try and break me.
Because of how naive I was, I had no idea that people could ever get hurt in the church, especially by those in leadership. I thought those peeps were extra godly, but sure enough, I experienced people's sin-filled humanity even the house of God also. Jealously had engulfed the mind of the one person I was looking up to for guidance in my Christian walk - And that assault nearly left me for dead. I thought of Joseph and his brothers, and King David and Saul. But this time, I had been the one thrown in the pit and sold, I was now the one on the run for my life afraid of the one person I esteemed so much. Lesson learned!
God continued to teach me that only His love, promises to never fail us. We can't put our full hope in people or things. All people are human and capable of failing and the things we possess will fade away with time - only God is our solid foundation and if we put our trust in Him, He will always be there to catch our fall.
Jeremiah 17:5 "This is what the LORD says: "Cursed are those who put their trust in mere humans, who rely on human strength and turn their hearts away from the LORD."
Matthew 24:12 "Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold."
Psalm 62:2 "[The Lord] only is my rock and my salvation, My stronghold; I shall not be greatly shaken."